Here I will share with you, real talk from my past
Hurting, searching, and at times, just out right desperate
Wanting and desiring for my void to be filled
Wanting for this constant longing inside of me to be killed
You know… that desire of just wanting to have someone to truly love you until…
Yes, someone to just love you for who you are
Who will be there permanently instead of only temporal
So you know what? I decided to go after that in which I thought I wanted
Yet, only to find out, after the pleasure expired
The person I was with is gone…
Thus, for me, there I am left with a piece of my heart stolen
Left in a state of complete mass confusion
Cause you see, it makes absolutely no earthly sense to me
How something which once started out as so perfect only ended up to be so ruined
Therefore, I’m left disappointed, devastated and in a state of depression
Where if the truth were to be told, I can’t even shake
Why, cause those soul ties are almost impossible to break.
Though hurt once again, I say, how I will absolutely NEVER
Allow myself to experience that type of unnecessary drama
But then… there he is and once again, my guard goes down
And in only a matter of time, guess what?
I am right back where I started, held captive in this repetitive cycle
In other words, I constantly found myself in the same situations
It’s just that, this one had a different face, with a different name
But the end result, was the exact same, with NO change
Then once the relationship was over, I felt used, emotionally
Abused, with just more and more wasted time
Asking myself, how in the world did I end up back in this same ole, same ole?
Yet that’s when I heard… “It’s identified as the cycle” and after many years of being in that cycle I came to realize that this cycle, is not broken by human ability, but that, it truly takes us surrendering our lives unto Christ that He can then do supernaturally what NO man, can do.
Now, if you already have a relationship with Christ but yet, have found yourself in this situation, being the cycle, I’d like to encourage you to DO repent whole heartily, choose to turn away from your way, to the Lord’s way. Such that, you too, can walk in freedom from this cycle and it be a thing of your past.
Thank you Father, for breaking this cycle in my life and doing the same for those who are tired of taking this road which leads to nothing but heartache, lost time, and destruction. Amen.
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